And stuff.
SO.
Tried asking my mommy to let Drew stay the night on New Year's Eve. She said she'd ask dad. I told her not to after Drew asked his dad - because he said no. Due to the fact my parents are working that night. What I don't quite comprehend, however, is that he said no to staying the night - but not to coming over for the day. My parents would leave for work around 5ish and not be home until probably 2 a.m. Drew would leave around 9:30. So...yeah. I could understand not wanting him to come over because my parents were gone. I could even understand him not wanting him to spend the night if they WERE home.
If he came over and left at 9:30...he'd still be here without my parents home AND he'd have to drive home on New Year's Eve with the crazies....
Fuck. People confuse the hell out of me.
Moving on.
I HAS iTUUUUNES.
Seeing how I got a $15 card from parentals, and Drew gave me his $25...I has $40 worth of iTunes.
Thus far;
I Get Off - Halestorm
Predictable - Good Charlotte
1985 - Bowling For Soup
Stop Me When You've Had Enough - Nural
Massive - The Loved Ones
Anthem - Zebrahead
Twisted Transistor - KoRn
All That I've Got - The Used
Drain the Blood - The Distillers
Welcome to the Black Parade - My Chemical Romance
Come On, Come On - Smash Mouth
Dopeman - Less Than Jake
Listen to 'em if you haven't already. Good stuff.
Ah. The guitar is named, by the way. Maria, by Drew's suggestions. After songs by All Time Low [Dear Maria, Count Me In] and Green Day [Maria].
So yeah. Yayyy. Rachel's is named Abraham.
Dude. I'm all...weird again. Egad.
I went from 'I don't care, I'm going to do what I like, fuck the money, I'll get by, have fun and be happy' to... 'AGH. Can't just do whatever, nothing I'd like would work out anyway, money's necessary, I can't do just anything, wouldn't be worth it..' blah blah blah.
This is bullshit. For realz.
The worst part, is even if I WANTED to go back to everything - the writing/photography/artsy crap - I don't think I can. I grew up a bit and no longer see the point. I don't....Egh. It's not the same now. If I tried any of it now, I'd give up in an hour by realizing there's no point and it's a waste of time. Because it is and it would all fall through eventually.
-headdesk- I'm starting to think I'm entirely different than I was, I'm going to continue changing, not like it, and not be able to fix it.
Fuck.
ANYWAY.
Excuse the ranting. Felt like it.
....
It's cold.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Blarg. Just....BLARG.
Posted by Meg at 12:47 PM
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I Get Off - Halestorm
^ GREAT SONG. :D
Anyway, I'm so confused about the whole New Years Eve-Drew thing XD What happened there in incredibly simple terms so Nina understands?
IT IS XD
SO dirty, but SO awesome 8D
Ah;
We were going to see if he could spend the night, but his dad wouldn't let him. Then we were trying for just the day, but due to my parents working, MY dad wouldn't let him. So he came over yesterday xD
Definitely. xD
So... your dad said he could sleep over, but not come over? XD
Not quite, Nina xD
I asked my mom about it first. She said she'd ask my dad.
Before she asked dad, Drew asked HIS dad, who said he couldn't sleep over, but he could stay for the day.
So since he said no to sleeping over, there was no point asking my dad for that, so we changed it to just the day, and my dad said no xD
Kinda see what you're saying with the Drew-staying-the-night situation. o.O Why not just leave before the crazies were out, though?
I shall have to check out the songses. ^-^
Dude, I get like that constantly. One day I'm all, 'fuck school, I'm going to make it with my writing, do what I want' and the next I'm freaking out because I'm whittling away time that I could spend aspiring to... something. >.> It's like, I really WANT to go to art school, probably the Ft. Lauderdae Art Institute, but I know I HAVE to do something that matters for shit. Especially now with Kris going to West Point. I think my parents would have a seizure if I went to the art institute. xD
But ah, yeah, the whole growing up thing sucks. o.O
Noooo idea dude. But ah well. Stupidity cannot be changed XD
Dooo it :D
Not the growing up thing really. I don't mind that part. That much closer to 18, and even considering all the hell and hassle, I'm looking forward to it x]
But yeah, I know what you mean. Keep in mind though, that you are not your brother and it's your life - not your parents'. x]
-shrug- Honestly, I'm not even really looking forward to it. I'm not really too keen on staying here, considering my father and I can't seem to manage the idea of getting along, but I have no idea how I'd go to school and have a job. Not too sure what I want to do right now. >.>
And yeah, this is true. Seems like whenever I turn around though someone's talking about how I'm going to screw up my life. T_T
A.) You don't need to go to college for EVERYTHING. So if that doesn't work, there's always random things like Publix. Not amazing, no, but you'd get by.
B.) Stop LISTENING to everyone that tells you that. For real, dude, listening to downer people doesn't get you anywhere. Not anywhere good, anyway.
C.) If you actually think there's something you WANT TO DO...uhm...work at it? Better to try and have it not work out than give up before you start and never know.
If you don't....well, then you wing it XD
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